Thursday, July 24, 2008
Thursday, my favourite day!
Had a good 16-hour sleep, but damn, it could've been longer. Anil called me but I didn't save her number so I didn't pick up. If you guys know me well enough, you should know I seldom pick up calls from unknown numbers. So yepp. Texted a "Who are you?" and got a "lina, need to ask eeu sumthing juz nw... nah, it's okayz..." Yeah word for word, oops, I let her name out. So yeah, I don't think that warrants a reply so I didn't.
Probably she thinks it's hostility, and most definitely, she got it. She moved away and didn't sit with us during class now. Good.
Lunched with P at Anchorpoint. Their squid set is good. Comes with tom yum soup too. Tom yum makes everything taste good, seriously. Had 2 avocado shakes with my sis at Alexandra Village and it was good. Sorry, blah vocab and seriously just wanna write whatever comes to my mind.
Looking forward to tmr's czechar dinner with the usuals from school and after that, rewatching Batman: TDK with S. It's been a long time since I've seen him, wonder if it's gonna be weird. Just realised I've known him for 6 years, good gracious!
Why... soo... serious?And seriously I don't know whether I'll be looking forward to the weekend. Screw it and I don't know why I'm doing what I'm doing k. But at the very least I still reminiscence about good ol' secondary school days lives. I'm not sure whether I can say the same for you.
Okay, mood's getting bad and I'm getting tired, have a great day tmr all.
P/S: Got my uber cute Snupped laptop case via mail. So bloody quirky and I LOVE it (although it's too big for my laptop but can fit my pencil case files yadda yadda yeah kthxbai)
Sunday, July 20, 2008
Come As You Are
Sunday morning. Woke up early and went downstairs to have breakfast with C. He's been craving mee hoon kuey for the longest time and 216's got really good mee hoon kuey. It closes at 11am-ish so my mom dabaos it for me, like maybe thrice a week before I go to school. Other days I'll get tom yum soup with mee pok (average, but I reckon tom yum makes everything tastes nice) and wanton mee (I think it's one of the best I've eaten) Carbo constitutes a big part of my diet.
Going for my jab tmr again and I'll be freed of Chickenpox. Forever!
Anyway yet another one of my favourites, to you (although I know you [are too busy/don't care] won't ever read this). It fully describes what I really wanna say to you right now. I'll be looking forward to the coming Saturday and hope we'll have fun. I hope you won't be forever gone just like Kurt Cobain. Ha.
Come as you are, as you were
As I want you to be
As a friend, as a friend
As an old enemy
Take your time, hurry up
Choice is yours, don't be late
Take a rest as a friend
As an old
Memoria
Memoria
Memoria
Memoria
Come dowsed in mud, soaked in bleach
As I want you to be
As a trend, as a friend
As an old
Memoria
Memoria
Memoria
Memoria
And I swear that I don't have a gun
No, I don't have a gun, no, I don't have a gun
Memoria
Memoria
Memoria
Memoria (No, I don't have a gun)
And I swear that I don't have a gun
No, I don't have a gun, no, I don't have a gun
No, I don't have a gun, no, I don't have a gun
Memoria
Memoria
Friday, July 18, 2008
Some People Just Don't Get It..
-WARNING: Long bitching post-
Today, the-bimbotic-girl-who-said-she-didn't-like-my-bangles came and sat behind me. Well actually, she wanted to sit beside me, more on that later. For convenience, I shall call her Anil.
Right. Anil told me her usual clique was avoiding her. Yeah she started the conversation by saying that. I mean, like what has that gotta do with me, right? I don't think I look very free either. I was reading Teen Vogue while texting, and talking to PA.
So, I believe she told me that because on the basis that we were in the same PR group and she thought we were close, perhaps. However, I didn't want her in the group, neither do my members, but she waved at me and called my name across the room so LOUDLY that I couldn't avoid her. And the rest, like they say, is history.
Anil: Eh Pauline Pauline Pauline... (hurriedly)
P: What? (tries to sound disinterested so she'll leave me alone)
Anil: Oh sorry sorry, I dunno you listening to mp3 (I had this nudging feeling she's going to talk to me during break time so I just use my mp3 as a "barrier")
P: Oh nvm what? (thinking: SHIT)
A: You know I get this feeling my group of people avoiding me you know. Like so obvious sia. (You should guess her race by now by the way she talks and her name) I dunno what I did that offended them.
P: Confront them and ask then. No point asking me cos I don't know either (gave a faint smile immediately cos I thought I sounded too harsh [ie: frank] )
A: No laaah, how to ask damn paiseh you know. One of them sms me just now to say sorry. I was like say sorry for what?
P: ....
A: Yeah la, so I dunno. I think both groups (she hang out with one clique, then moved on to another) are avoiding me. I mean I come to school not to socialise you know, I pay so much I want to study happily I don't like this kind of politics. I think out of 6, only 1 dislike me.
P: So go and mix with the 5? If not it'll be damn weird right, if you distant yourself away for too long.
A: But the 1 is controlling them, influencing them not to like me.
P: If you keep your distance away right now for too long, the 1 will succeed in getting them to dislike you even more right, since you're not even there to defend yourself.
A: I dunno laahh. (obviously did not comprehend what I said, she's really v bimbotic and gave a patronising reply)
P: *turns back and focus reading TV*
A: Eh eh Pauline, can I sit beside you? (I was sitting beside P with an empty seat in between us for us to put our bags)
The other P came to my rescue.
PA: No. Sorry I like my space. (in the politest way possible)
P: Yeah, although I'm very close with PA I don't sit right next to him too.
A: Nvm one what.
PA: No you still remember that incident when Wallace sit beside me and I shifted?
A: Oh (she saw it that time apparently) But I not Wallace what.
PA: Noooo.. I mean. I.. Just need my space. Yeah thanks.
A: O...kay.
PA: Yeah, hope you understand.
A: *looks disappointed*
Now, you see, the problem with her is that she's behaving like a LEECH. I don't even know her, yet she adds me on Friendster. Okay nvm, since I feel that Friendster is for the I've-seen-you! friends, you know what I mean? But she f-ing added me to MSN cos she referred to the class list and got my email. I know I could have blocked her/not added her, but I always use my lappy in class. What if she sees it?
And I hated the part when she asked if she could sit in between PA and me. PA's big bag (think overstuffed Deuter with Macbook, 2 files, work files, lecture notes inside) was on the chair while my red (spells danger/stop/go away!) Crumpler (think the LARGEST Crumpler you can get) was lying on the table with the flap open.
Okay, my point is, there's obviously NO ROOM for one more person. It's also clear to see that we like our space although we're friends (like for 3 months). She, a person I talk to for barely 3 minutes, want to sit in between us? And I thank god (okay not really but I can't think of other expression) that YY skipped class today. She sat behind PA and me although we belonged to the same clique. We need personal space!
And Anil was very irritating cos she kept tapping on my shoulders to ask stupid questions. Questions she would have answers for only if she LISTENED and PAID ATTENTION. I can't stand anything bout her lah!
Samsung pearly white clamshell phone zhnged to death with pink crystals. Pink pencil case with fluffy pink furball keychain attached. Scary honey contact lenses. FULL ON eyeliner (the more you can guess her race right). Wears kitten heels, you know, the kind aunties / OL wear (I hate them!). Wears This Fashion-ish clothes. Not that I'm sartorially perfect, you know what I mean.. She actually makes me hate pink.
I don't know why she keeps trying to foster this friendship with me in which she calls my name every 15 minutes to ask me "riddles" (Pauline you want me to tell you a riddle? <- I can't say no right.) But luckily enough for me, I know all the answers to her riddles (Why didn't the alligator eat the pig? How to put elephant in a fridge? blah) and minimised the time that we talk (you know, time spent for guessing, "Is it xxxx?"). When we left, PA and I rushed out to take the lift but she followed us right through, asking if I had lunch. ........ God, pls save me from all this if you see this, I find it very hard to be assertive yet I want my peace. :(
18:30
Wednesday, July 16, 2008
I'm On A Blogging Roll
To anyone who thinks I'm your "good bud", from one of my fave band of all time.
If you wanna be my friend
You want us to get along
Please do not expect me to
Wrap it up and keep it there
The observation I am doing could
Easily be understood
As cynical demeanour
But one of us misread...
And what do you know
It happened again
A friend is not a means
You utilize to get somewhere
Somehow I didn't notice
friendship is an end
What do you know
It happened again
How come no-one told me
All throughout history
The loneliest people
Were the ones who always spoke the truth
The ones who made a difference
By withstanding the indifference
I guess it's up to me now
Should I take that risk or just smile?
What do you know
It happened again
What do you know
20:54
Dream: Scribble "Pauline" Onto My Car Booty
Went to school in jersey, FBT and slippers today. Looked damn sloppy la but felt ultra comfortable and almost dozed off in class today, the lecturer was speaking in soft monotonous voice and that didn't help. So I went out to take a walk and saw a Beemer coming in through the gate. So heng you say.
Not the usual 3 series, but a Z4! And then she (yeah SHE) proceeded to park beside the RX8. I wonder if they're friends. Cos the rest of the parking lots were filled with "normal cars" (in my opinion) like Honda Jazz, Toyota Camry, Suzuki Swift etc.
As far as I've seen, there are two RX8 in my school. One's teal which is this, and the other's black, which ultra low suspension and spoiler. I know RX8 is probably means nothing to most people out there, but I reaaaally like to look at cars, makes time pass easily when I'm on the bus/outside I think.
And you know why I've to snap a pic of this? Check out the booty of the Z4.
If you can't see, it's "Hello Kitty" My god! If only I can own one and ruin it with "P a u l i n e ' s" at the back too. Rich people can do anything.
The only highlight of today's class was Mr P's talk about respecting people, be it your superiors or those below you. Skip this if you don't like "moral of the story kinda story".
His story goes something like this. He was then a reporter with the-very-big-M-company and he had this bastard of a colleague who was his arch enemy. This guy wanted to sabotage him by not informing him of a press conference at Swissotel till the very last minute so he had to rush down all by himself cos he couldn't find the camera crew in "C Hill".
When he reached, he parked illegally and ran to the lift to get to the ballroom, and was given chase by the security guard. He had to stay outside the ballroom as there were instructions by the minister not to allow any latecomers, and the door could only be opened when the whole conference ended.
And so he waited there till the door opened and realised his camera crew were inside. He had a shock and so did the camera crew Cos they expected him to be there and thought something happened to him. The camera crew had filmed down the whole half-an-hour footage so he had something to submit for his work. When questioned why they did that, it was because Mr P always helped them carry their barang barang, treated them to thosai/mee goreng occasionally - so it all boils down to simple gestures.
Food for thought, lol.
While on my way out to school, I saw a red Daihatsu Copen which was darn cute but there were too many people, and I don't wanna attract weird stares. But the Daihatsu Copen had a WRX-esque spoiler which was unfit for its small size.
Like the saying goes, money can't buy you style.
Lunched at JP with the P&Ps again.
PY treated us to some "xiao tang bao", P had his omelette rice, and if you know me well enough, you should know that I rarely eat anything else other than BAN MIAN when I'm at JP Kopitiam. Yepp, plus many many chili, I like. I realise I get along better with guys, they're much more easy going and not so uptight. Talked for more than an hour with them and it felt good, even made plans about GMAX. Woohoo! Haven't been able to do so with my supposed gang of people, except for like two? Sad.
Anyway, 172ed back and promised my sis to go to The Daily Scoop around Sunset Way but we fell asleep! Damn hot la today, craving for ice cream, or maybe tomorrow.
Getting hungry now, thank goodness mum bought chicken rice for me after she finish mahjong-ing at Boon Lay. I'm a CARRRBS woman. Adios!
Tuesday, July 15, 2008
I Can't Stand A****na
Finally got rid of my Forever21 dress, vintage romper and a vintage bag, which made me almost $50 richer. That's not a lot considering the $ I spent on these stuffs. I should really curb spending so much and save up for something practical like a DSLR or something.
The first buyer I met today was the typical girl-next-door with braces, just outside PS Starbucks. And then I rushed to Clementi to meet another girl, who was so nice she fucking cabbed down when I texted her to inform her that I reached early cos I miscalculated the time (my intention was to tell her I've reached, not to rush her) Asked her to take the bus as it's my fault but she still insisted on cabbing down. Nice right? Not like shameless people who make you wait everytime. Ooh how I love subtle attacks. I shall call her LV girl since she's carry a LV Speedy 30.
LV Girl has got really good skin! Think she's about 23/24? She told me she didn't wanna take the "vvv unreliable 173", and then later told me about her bf who's staying in Bt Timah. Talking to her was like talking to a REAL friend you know, which is pretty damn weird since it's the first time we ever met. It's ironic and a lil unusual that I can talk so much to a person I DON'T KNOW. I mean if you know me well you should know I'm not one who make small talks. But on the other hand, I can't do the same for someone who claims I'm his/her good bud. Whatever happen to "best bud" in the past? I got downgraded. Ha. Sorry I digressed.
So yeah.. She touched the bangles on my wrist and asked where I got them from, and said it was "expensive" when I said I bought them at Accessorize+F21+Aldo+Topshop at $100+. I wanted to tell her, oei hello I'm carrying a cheapo $19.95 bag from Cotton On while yours is a Speedy okay. But I didn't and we chatted for throughout 20 mins of our train ride.
And you know what, there is this like really bimbotic girl in my class, who likes pink, hello kitty, sparkly stuffs, you know.. all those stuffs the girly girls like? My usual practice is to take out my bangles once I'm in class cos it gets in the way when I'm writing.
She came over and grab hold of them and say, "Yours ah?" which was damn obvious cos who else can it be? And WITHOUT asking me, she put them on and commented, "I don't know why girls like to wear so many bangles. Why huh? Why huh, can you tell me? For me I prefer those Soo Kee Jewellery, Goldheart especially those white-gold one, I think nicer leh."
Fuck, which made me damn angry cos I didn't like her in the first place, she's damn slow and her jokes are not funny. Ugh. And now she wears my bangles! Hello, if you add ALL my bangles up you can buy something from.. uh.. uh.. TAKA Jewellery (they're forever having sales it's atrocious). Okay I know damn bo standard but you get what I mean la. If I were her, I'll just target T&Co okay. Soo Kee? Pui! Not my cup of tea.
Okay, and this is precisely why this blog has always been kept "private".
Friend: Eh Pauline you take picture of cars for what
P: Put in blog lor (okay reason you havent seen any is cos I'm too lazy)
F: Oh u have blog ah?
P: Yeah
F: What address?
In which I always try to change topic, this has happened a couple of times already, till the point that I think it's quite clear I don't wanna share my blog address with them. I mean, for me, my blog is a private channel for myself, I don't blog for an audience, I don't want to and I definitely don't have the ability to. I don't lace my blog w pictures cos I'm too lazy to. I don't have much of a life (ie: don't go clubbing) I don't blog in superfluous language cos my entries are mostly fuelled by anger (LOL) and what do you say when you're really angry? I'm infuriated and gnashing my teeth and those "pretentious essay language"? No. You say Fuck!
Yes, and to H, to fuck with you for being the person you're right now. Thanks for reading this boring entry and good night all.
22:55
Saturday, July 12, 2008
I Just Realise I Haven't Posted This (Dated 12 Jul)
Yay, no more surviving on Redbulls! For people who want to find a cheap place in town to eat, I've a good place to introduce. Moreover, it's less crowded and you don't have to queue behind couples can't get their hands off each other.
It's at Dhoby Xchange. Yeah, you know that obscure shopping space under Dhoby Ghaut MRT Station, where the arcade is.. Yepp, I actually had a preconception that there was nothing much at Dhoby Xchange (due to the reports I see > that tenants at DX are barely surviving) but I found Just Acia, thanks to Para.
They serve free-flow ice cream and drinks there when you order their food. I had a bulgogi set which was above food-court standard.
My eating kaki. Para's damn good at directions and knowing where to buy cheap stuffs. PY's.. damn.. cute.
I've a penchant for colour you see, so I had Mango + Strawberry + Yam. They also have some other flavours like chocolate mint, chocolate, vanilla etc. The ice cream was nothing to shout about, but what do you expect from something that is "free-flow"? Overall a good-for-value place I'll say.
Oh, and we met Daniel and gang on the bus. He's really quite cute, I realise his eyes sparkle when he talks, and he has this sharp little tooth. And I just realise he's Peranakan! Okay, sorry.
Had a really good time after exams just spending with these new friends + old friends. Thanks Agent Mumblebee / Agent Krombacher (eh I can't rmb your cs la) for the wonderful night on top of Hillview. Make me wish I had a VW Beetle Cabriolet so that I can ferry you people around topless.
Tuesday, July 08, 2008
Free From Thurs 1pm!
Need a laugh?
Xiao Shuang, 34, streetwalker at Geylang Lorong XX.
That's totally believable right?
Just look at my horrible makeup. It made me look at least 10 years older. Initially I went without the makeup (as usual) for my passport photo but my mum said I was deathly pale and that I "needed some colour on my face". I didn't like the idea anyway cos the most extreme I've gone to was to wear eyeliner / mascara. Hell, I don't even wear makeup when I was waitressing back then even when Velu insisted.
So yeah, she began to slap layers of her thick foundation (imo, it makes me look EVEN fairer) on me. There's also this weird orange blusher. Not coral, not peach, but ORANGE.
I think even Agyness Deyn can't pull that look off lah, let alone ME. ME! Someone who will look China no matter what you do to her.
And the worst thing was, right after that, she claimed she hasn't used her makeup since the early 90s.
WHICH MEANS I'M WEARING FOUNDATION ABOUT AS OLD AS ME. What happened to the 3 mths-6mths -> disposal rules magazines advocate? I guess they don't believe in that in the 80s/90s.
Thank goodness I didn't suffer any break out. The photoshoot suffered though, as you can clearly see.
Anyway I just realised that Raffles Hotel have got the best ball-point pen. I've tried many pens but it remains my favourite! Maybe it's the memory associated with it too. All the captain orders, all the fried chicken hidden @ side station. Haha.
P/S: Was studying at the table with my mp3 full blast (and tuning in to Symphony 92.4, YES V LOSER I KNOW) when Daniel knocked on my table, pouted and signalled me that it was time to go up to the exam hall. DAMN CUTE OMG.
POUT! I think it was accidental - but that was mainly why it was cute. He has Peranakan blood, no wonder he looks so different!
Okay I should be studying now instead, adios and enjoy midweek!
Wednesday, July 02, 2008
I won't be online for this week and the next cos I've got to study. So if you wanna get me just text me.
Till 10 July.
So if I ever get undisciplined and you see "P" as busy (highly unlikely though), kindly ask me to go offline.
Yepp, and my mum just called to say my uncle's wife passed away this morning. She's got cancer and I think she's only in her early 40s. My uncle's a bit of a womaniser as well so I kinda pity her. And their two small kids, the eldest is perhaps only in lower primary.
Also, my ex neighbour who's a Chinese National went to the police station because her Singaporean bum-of-a-husband was abusing her. And to think he just became a dad.
Not to sound mean, but if you can't marry a Singaporean woman, something must be seriously wrong with you right? Okay maybe NOT seriously, but there must be SOMETHING wrong. Like why can your fellow friends marry a Singapore wife but not you?
On the other hand if I were her, I'd have been more discerning. Like why the hell will this guy come to an agency to look for a foreign wife. If he's OLD, he might be widowed (I can perfectly understand). But at 30+?
Anyway hell I don't think I'll even wanna marry a Singaporean cos we have different culture and I'll be looked down upon (face it, it's true isn't it?) I wonder how Singapore is portrayed in foreign context.
Bah nvm, this are just my opinions and I know I shouldn't poke into someone else's affair. I just need a break from my work. Getting back to it now, wish me luck.
Treasure life, and live life the way you want it.
12:02
