Tuesday, December 15, 2009
Silence..
I realised I'm on the phone with strangers more than I do with friends.
Really, I mean, how many phone calls have you received from me in your lifetime? Think about the content, what did we talk about? Was it a short 59 secs (just so I don't incur the cost of the next minute) one and went like this - "Where are you?"
I don't know whether this is considered "strange", but I really hate talking on the phone. More so when I don't know the person on the other line. The last telephone porridge I cooked was back in secondary school I think... or perhaps with D. We used to have endless topic to talk about, and it was fun to talk while making funny faces at the webcam.
Those were the days.
Now, my office is seriously damn quiet, because it's either everyone has their eyes fixated on the computer looking at their manuscripts, or they're frantically typing away on the keyboard. So, if I have to call, everyone can hear what I'm saying. And you know they'll listen in. Because I know I'd if I were them.
And I hate it! Because there are times when I have to be really "PR" and say things I don't wanna say. I mean, if you know me well enough, I'm not someone who say things like "You're so sweet.", "Gosh, thanks a million for your help!", "You're the best." etc, you get the drift. I'm more... subdued, and I don't really like saying things when I don't mean it. Saying no to food is another matter altogether.
I'm about 6 months into my job, and I think I've learnt and changed quite a bit. To be honest, I didn't learn much from what I do (as in the job scope), but more of relationships. Those between colleagues, superiors, vendors, suppliers, whatever. I've always liked being an observer, sitting at a corner, taking in everything the world offers me to. Maybe that's why I'm such a loner. I'm too detached and aloof.
16:10
Friday, December 11, 2009
Overheard on the bus
Huh where is 313?
I thought it's 323 that coffeeshop leh!
This iPhone earbuds wouldn't work I tell you. I'm going to save up to buy a good in ear earbuds since my sonicgear one died last month.
This is weird, I took a sniff and it smelt like someone I know. Goodness. 5 mins away!
-- Post From My iPhone
18:40
So long, goodbye
I'm now on 106 towards city hall. Passed by swensen's and I'm amazed at how long I haven't been there. Maybe it really doesn't matter anymore.
I love long bus trips. I'd rather take a bus then train. Especially when HV is part of 106's route. I'm revisiting childhood memories, I'm not feeling particularly well today.
I'll be going to Esplanade, to borrow a book about Ian Curtis. Also be checking out where the esplanade concert hall is, since it's my first time and I'll be going to yeah yeah yeah concert this coming Jan.
After that, I'll probably be meeting my boy for a movie or something. It's about time we do some dating haha, I need someone to perk me up.
I'm at gleneagles now, TGIF.
-- Post From My iPhone
18:22
Q&A
At the C&B (Compensation & Benefits, but you can say it's C*ck&Bullsh*t) orientation today, we had an icebreaker which went like this.
1. On a slip of folded paper, "Ans" and "Qn" is written on each side.
2. Force yourself to think of something to ask, and write it down.
3. Pass it on to the person sitting on your left, and write down the answer for your question on the slip of the paper passed to you.
17:10
Wednesday, December 02, 2009
Why is the moon stalking me?
I enjoy even silence with you.
-- Post From My iPhone
21:16
Tuesday, December 01, 2009
Death from Above
iPhone earphone sucks. I can still hear the idle chatters on the bus. I was using a SonicGear (support local brand!) in-ear one before that, and it died tragically, snapped by the gate.
Now, I'm really strapped for cash. But since today's the first day of December, allow me to make a little Xmas wish. A sennheiser headphone or something. I really don't wanna use this ubiquitous iPhone earphone that EVERYONE is using.
God, they don't realize it sucks? Or they don't bother.
-- Post From My iPhone
22:50
Monday, November 30, 2009
Change is the only constant
Bye bye Fish Cake.
-- Post From My iPhone
23:19
Taptaptap
I'm currently at the place I hate most in this world (okay may this comes in second since toilet is the first). And I have to do the thing I hate the most - WAIT.
Tap tap.
I'm sixth in line, and I hate wasting 1 hour plus of my weekday night like this. I took my dad's flu tablet yesterday and instead of making me drowsy, I stayed up the whole night, which probably add on to my crankiness.
Stifling workload as usual, but time passed by so quickly. The dept went to WCP for YL bd lunch, and wow I really like the Korean BBQ chicken. It is grilled to perfection with meat still tender, yet it doesn't have this "raw" taste I hate about meat. If only WCP isn't so out of the way.
17 mins passed, and the doctor is stuck in a "traffic jam". I'm putting on my earphones and cranking the volume up. Some Nirvana would do me good. I almost ended up buying a S$20++ magazine with a Nirvana canvas bag. Courtney Love is the cover girl. How appropriate.
Okay I finally see the doctor, probably late 30s or very early 40s. Fair skinned, specs, wears BLUE striped shirt, he totally fits the stereotype of a doctor. Decent and clean cut.
The first patient walked in.
Alright, i'll update again if interesting things happen. My blog is like Twitter (frequency) meets thesis (length) now.
-- Post From My iPhone
19:25
Another week
I hate Sunday nights, I get waves of anxiety thinking about what to expect on Monday morning.
Well, this weekend has been rather fruitful. I'm out and about everyday instead of staying at home. I can't stay at home, it's too depressing.
Today I had a deep discussion about relationships. I'm glad there's someone I can talk about these stuffs with. Not in-depth regarding the juicy details, but at least I've got things cleared from my mind.
What are you most afraid of? As I get older, I realized I fear boredom and loneliness the most.
Can't wait for Friday to come.
-- Post From My iPhone
00:33
Saturday, November 28, 2009
2 chances
But I chose to let go.
Kind of interested in finding out how it will turn out to be, but kind of afraid of the consequence and disappointment. When I agree, I feel like I have no control over myself. When I reject, I feel like i'm in control, but yet my mind and heart can't seem to agree on the subject.
I don't know, I've already said no. No beeping sound, I guess it's final.
-- Post From My iPhone
12:50
